this is how i feel

OLD art, done back in early college, first semester out of high school. stressful year, i took on too many classes, things were not so great at home, i seemed to never get enough sleep, it was new place and new people and i hardly knew anyone but oddly enough this drawing helped that as the guys next to me saw me working on it and were awestruck and totally into it.

i drew this one during math class, i have struggled with math ever since it quit using real and whole numbers (fractions and a+b DOES NOT WORK in my ADHD ridden brain) so math made feel exceptionally shitty and it was my first class of the day and i had just had an argument in the car on the way to school...and so that is when this was born.

this thing is MORBID D:

it is something that used to be beautiful but the more bad karma/emotion/atmosphere there is around it it the more ugly it gets, it is the little things that hurt the most as they add up quickly and are not handled with the same gusto as a real tragedy or problem. the environment it is exposed to has gotten so harsh it has begone to bleed and cries with the physical and emotional pain, it's body shows the damage being done to it's soul....

i did not post this long ago because it was something i did not want my family to see, but i am much MUCH happier and stress free now (school was a big part of the stress) so i am posting this in hopes of inspiring others to get through hard times as it does get better