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this is how i feel by LilleahWest this is how i feel by LilleahWest
OLD art, done back in early college, first semester out of high school. stressful year, i took on too many classes, things were not so great at home, i seemed to never get enough sleep, it was new place and new people and i hardly knew anyone but oddly enough this drawing helped that as the guys next to me saw me working on it and were awestruck and totally into it.

i drew this one during math class, i have struggled with math ever since it quit using real and whole numbers (fractions and a+b DOES NOT WORK in my ADHD ridden brain) so math made feel exceptionally shitty and it was my first class of the day and i had just had an argument in the car on the way to school...and so that is when this was born.

this thing is MORBID D:

it is something that used to be beautiful but the more bad karma/emotion/atmosphere there is around it it the more ugly it gets, it is the little things that hurt the most as they add up quickly and are not handled with the same gusto as a real tragedy or problem. the environment it is exposed to has gotten so harsh it has begone to bleed and cries with the physical and emotional pain, it's body shows the damage being done to it's soul....

i did not post this long ago because it was something i did not want my family to see, but i am much MUCH happier and stress free now (school was a big part of the stress) so i am posting this in hopes of inspiring others to get through hard times as it does get better
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BlazetheKingPone Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2015
ha ha love it but i also fell bad for laughing i hope you aren't offended it's just that it's not like a laugh like i'm laughing at you it's like a that's awesome kind of laugh but yeah i fell bad for you dude for having to go through that i'm going through that same thing right now so yeah i know how you fell i hope we can be friends and i hope we get to know each other and just to let you know i suck really badly at drawing on the computer so yeah you can laugh at me if you want to i'm used to being laughed at so yeah go ahead laugh at me if you want to.   ;)   ;)    ;)   ;)   ;)
AstaraBriarart Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
i really like what you sead and im going through hard time so this made me feel less your art keep doing what your doing girl:)
Forsaken2010 Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
This is amazing. So much detail, and it contains a lot of evokes a lot of memories in me. It's amazing how art can truly depict the happenings in one's soul.
jazzshewolf Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2010
Yes, I understand this one.
IIXSephirothVII Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2010
Whoa!! i love the whole aspect of a morbid unicorn. its like beauty on its downside lol.
Jerepasaurus Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow. Id say I really relate to that. o_o
And even the math bit. That was EXACTLY when math made no more sense to me. Plus, its surprisingly like my watermark and symbol. (Depressing and evil as it is really.)
All the little things just keep building, and I tend to try and push them away to their own little dark corner.

I'm glad you feel better now though. Remember, that you can always draw on that past stress as a form of long as you do so carefully. :)
nFeyrna Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
instant :+fav:
A well made pice to describe how hard life can be as well as just giving some hope and encouragement to overcome it. It shows a very clear point and is quite awakening. *nods* excellent work.
AuroraKatn Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2010
I totally understand this. It must have been very hard to go through. The drawing is amazing though! I like the details and the emotions in it. :+fav:
LilleahWest Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2010
looking back on that year it was not really that horrible, i mean no one diedm no one got hurt, we did not lose our house, i was not being abused, or anything like that...but there was a lot of small daily negatives that really began to add up. it was like water dripping on a stone, if it drips long enough then it can actually make a hole in the rock. small daily stressers and arguments take a toll on me faster than a major incident because with something major one gets this mind set of "be strong i can get over this" but small daily things get brushed under the rug untill it builds up enough to hurt.
AuroraKatn Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2010
Yea, I understand.
WildRunningWolf Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2010
morbid <3 I understand perfectly how where you feeling, I have done a drawing like this recently...
NightyMarey Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Very nice :D
Vijka Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2010
Wow, great colours and when I was looking at this pic I felt a bit depressed. Nice.
F-0-X-Y Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
very graphic but is great in its own rights!
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